Janine

Being a crystal meth and heroin user, I hated my life and wanted sobriety so bad. I was constantly craving this in my life and just couldn't bring myself to being sober. I was miserable so I just kept using more and more everyday.

I moved back home June 15 and I only stayed home for just under 2 weeks and I went back to Edmonton and only planned on staying for a week but stayed until July 20. My son's birthday is July 13 and I promised him I would be home that day when he got back from camp. But I was to busy getting high. July 20 my parents took my son to the Waterpark in Edmonton and I went to meet them there and I came back home with them and haven't left since. My son told me that if I leave again he will hate me forever. I haven't kept in touch with anyone from there. Only people I talk to are the one's who are supporting me in my sobriety.

It was hard at first because I was going through withdrawals. I was scared but I needed the help so I ended up telling my parents what I was going through and instead of them getting angry with me like I thought they were actually really supportive and asked what they can do to help me through this. So they have taken me to see my doctor a couple times and we are planning on attending meetings this week. They have kept me busy doing stuff around the house and in the yard. Plus hanging out with my son and going for 2 hour bike rides a day, that at the end of the day when my son goes to bed, I am so exhausted that I tend to fall asleep laying in bed beside him. Which is good because at this point I am beyond tired and have no desire to contact any negative influences. I actually just applied to go back to school, which is a huge step. I wake up in the morning feeling like a normal person, I don't have the urge to get high as soon as I wake up. I feel motivated to do stuff instead of just looking for my next fix. I am excited and kind of nervous to see what tomorrow will bring now that I am sober!!