Quitting Meth For Good – How To Quit And What To Expect

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If you or a loved one is struggling with meth addiction, you know that it is a physical and psychological trip through hell that seemingly has no end. Quitting meth for good is your only option.

Meth is a powerful stimulant that robs your ability to experience pleasure, you lose memory functioning and those who are addicted to meth undergo severe and often shocking physical transformations that make them look like the living dead. You or a loved one desperately wants to stop the cycle of abuse and quit meth for good, but it’s pull may seem too strong and you may feel alone, defeated and even trapped by your addiction. Quitting meth is no easy task, but with help recovery is more than possible.

You may hear the deck is stacked against you. You may read graphic statistics and read that only a tiny percentage of users are able to quit meth. While quitting methamphetamine is a difficult journey, you need to cast the doubt aside because YOU CAN QUIT.  Your life is waiting for you… and with some knowledge, direction and support you will be well on your way to break the chains of meth addiction and find the happiness and serenity that recovery brings.

Medical Detoxification: The Crucial First Step To Quitting Meth

The first and arguably most critical step in quitting methamphetamine is undergoing medical detoxification at a reputable treatment facility or hospital.  While the withdrawal symptoms of meth may not be as severe as other substances such as heroin or alcohol, these symptoms are highly uncomfortable and have the potential to threaten your life dependent on previously existing medical conditions, the length of time you have used the drug and the presence of other drugs in your system.

The following are common withdrawal symptoms associated with meth:

  • chest pains
  • breathing difficulties
  • paranoia
  • mood swings
  • weight loss
  • increased risk of strokes, seizures and heart attacks

You can expect the detox process to last one to two weeks, but it can last much longer depending of the severity of symptoms. During this process, medical staff will employ a variety of methods to help minimize the symptoms associated with withdrawal and will evaluate you for any co-occurring disorders that can impact your recovery. It is absolutely critical that you are both mentally and physically stable before entering the next phase, which is drug treatment.

Drug Treatment

Drug treatment will allow you to overcome the underlying reasons why you are addicted to meth, and through counseling and therapy you will gain the life and coping skills needed to pursue recovery while guarding against the triggers that lead to relapse. Inpatient drug rehab centers that specialize in meth addiction allow you to recover in an environment away from the temptations of your home environment so you can focus solely on your recovery and allow you to focus on quitting meth.

Since each addict is different, you need to look for treatment facilities that provide a variety of therapeutic treatment options and will be able to provide you with an individualized treatment plan specifically created for your own recovery goals.

For information of different facilities, don’t hesitate to call the Sober Nation hotline. 866-317-7050.

Therapies such as cognitive-behavior therapy (CBT) and contingency management-type therapies in individual and group settings are extremely beneficial to addicts quitting meth, since they help to identify problem behaviors and thinking and provide incentives for positive changes.

You also need to consider the length of time needed give you the best chance to recover. While many drug treatment facilities offer programming that lasts 30 days, you may consider finding a meth treatment program that lasts for 60 days, 90 days or longer. Many meth addicts will experience a recurrence of withdrawal symptoms (often referred to as the wall) about 45 days after quitting meth. Undergoing meth addiction treatment for a longer period of time will allow treatment staff to help you work through this wall.

Added Support

Long-term recovery from meth addiction will require you to  find those resources that will provide you the support and encouragement you need to continue working your program of recovery. Once you finish meth rehab, your treatment facility should offer aftercare and intensive outpatient programs that focus on relapse prevention and the continued application of the skills needed to successfully function at work, home or school.

Many aftercare programs offered by rehab centers may also offer sober living environments such as halfway houses where you can receive the support of your peers who are in recovery. Additionally, continued participation in Twelve-Step groups such as Crystal Meth Anonymous or similar support groups will help you remain centered in the recovery community.

Do You Want To Quit Meth For Good? Call Sober Nation

Meth addiction is frightening and trying to find the help that you need can be a frustrating process.

If you are looking to break free from meth, Sober Nation provides you with the knowledge, treatment resources, and expert advice to help you turn your goal into reality. As recovering addicts, we understand the helplessness and isolation that you feel and we deliver all of our services with compassion and respect. Don’t wait until it is too late…call Sober Nation today and make recovery from meth a reality.

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Comments

    • nick says

      You will always have cravings. You have to want change to make it last. But the cravings do become easier to work through.

    • says

      I wish you we’re here to talk to my boyfriend who is on Meth it has destroyed mine and his relationship badly I feel like he cares more about that drug than he cares about me can you plz Prat for him for me plz I’m praying allot to get him off the shit.

    • Daniel Bresland says

      Help me please! I’m losing hope in my partner, she doesn’t want to quit and I need help real bad, and so does she…
      Everywhere I look, there is only help for those trying to quit, nothing for those trying to help loved ones quit….
      Help me help her…

      Daniel.

      • Sandra says

        You can’t make her quit! She has to want to quit. But there are some things you can do to help her find the help she needs. For example, you can ask her if she wants to try to attend classes,if she says yes I have found that narcotics anonymous has helped my father in his journey to quit his addiction.

  1. LpzA says

    Been sober for one month. I haven’t touched Meth or been
    Around anyone who goes at it.
    I’m wondering how long it will take for my mood swings to go away
    and my cravings ?
    Thanks

    • nick says

      I’m going on a year sober and I’m still dreaming meth and having mood swings.
      you have to learn how to talk yourself through the moods and tell yourself, you’re in control and will not be defeated.
      Good luck and keep strong and positive attitude.

  2. LpzA says

    I sometimes feel “lost” like I’m not this sober person IAM now.
    I guess I got so custom being the “superstar kid” while in meth
    that now in like WTF who am I?
    Ugh makes me wanna go get high so I can feel “normal”
    again but I know meth is evil and I don’t want any part of it

  3. Alicia says

    I’ve been sober going on 2 months after 4 years of using as much as i wanted daily i have no problem with drug cravings but have extreme anxiety in public

    • Benjamin.Patterson says

      That will pass. I quit for ten years after having an unlimited supply then I went back to it and started selling large quantities for the past few years. I quit again a month ago and don’t see myself falling backwards anytime soon. The dreams are always the hardest.

  4. Elaine says

    I am married to a meth addict; I abuse alcohol. He cannot get beyond the first week without meth, although we once went over a month without. Off of meth he is a nice, funny human who says he feels great and life is better. So why do we end up back to using? Because we do not realize it is a lifelong battle and we do not seek treatment. We think we can do it ourselves, we just have to figure out what it takes. Can couples get sober together?

  5. Elaine says

    I am married to a meth addict; I abuse alcohol. He cannot get beyond the first week without meth, although we once went over a month without. Off of meth he is a nice, funny human who says he feels great and life is better. So why do we end up back to using? Because we do not realize it is a lifelong battle and we do not seek treatment. We think we can do it ourselves, we just have to figure out what it takes. Can couples get sober together?

  6. maria says

    I just found out my 18 is using meth. I’m very sad and confused. I want to help her but don’t know how. Please someone help me. Please email me mf010673@gmail.com. I want to just lock her in a room for days until she sobers up…then get counseling.

  7. maria says

    I just found out my 18 is using meth. I’m very sad and confused. I want to help her but don’t know how. Please someone help me. Please email me mf010673@gmail.com. I want to just lock her in a room for days until she sobers up…then get counseling.

  8. Kari says

    If I can give someone hope an change their life I’m going to share with you my story of recovery. I was 24 when my best friend brought meth to my door. My life went on a roller coaster ride that I couldn’t get off for 12 years I was a user not an abuser. Thinking I was a little better but it wasn’t I wish I would of never touched it. It destroyed my life and the rebuilding of my life has been a very trial episode. Five years ago was my deepest darkest hole of quitting im 5years clean and I will never look back and think that I could ever touch meth again my life has turned around tremendously to actually have hope and and Live my lifethink it’ll always get better each day don’t ever quit trying to get off even if you fall back and just know that it is possible and it is I did it by myself in a house by myself and that’s after 12 years so we’re stronger than we think with a supported family too helps. An what I learned from my usage is I have to love myself no matter what no one is going to love you unless you love you first take care

  9. Kari says

    If I can give someone hope an change their life I’m going to share with you my story of recovery. I was 24 when my best friend brought meth to my door. My life went on a roller coaster ride that I couldn’t get off for 12 years I was a user not an abuser. Thinking I was a little better but it wasn’t I wish I would of never touched it. It destroyed my life and the rebuilding of my life has been a very trial episode. Five years ago was my deepest darkest hole of quitting im 5years clean and I will never look back and think that I could ever touch meth again my life has turned around tremendously to actually have hope and and Live my lifethink it’ll always get better each day don’t ever quit trying to get off even if you fall back and just know that it is possible and it is I did it by myself in a house by myself and that’s after 12 years so we’re stronger than we think with a supported family too helps. An what I learned from my usage is I have to love myself no matter what no one is going to love you unless you love you first take care

    • azza says

      Three weeks clean n the night mares r in full swing I wake up scared n sweating my arsse if. I will not turn back to using but I need to stop the nightmares iv been prescribed sequel coz they were night terrors at the start now there nightmares. Anyone heard of this or can help me. Please help me my email is lilazzap@gmail.com

  10. sharlene says

    When I met my partner he was full of life, he had a good job and was over joyed to be dating me. I knew he smoked meth but in my circle of friends at the time that was no surprise. I started smoking it with him and things got so out of control. We both quit a year ago, have not touched it since. Meth was not a problem for me, I used it for 6months and it was easy to say goodbye to it. No cravings no nothing. However, my partner had been using for 8years. He wasn’t a junkie hanging out for it. But he did use every weekend, by the end it got really bad. He almost lost his mind. But a year later we have come light years from where we were, I want to marry this man. But, he still struggles with cravings and bad thoughts. I think he maybe depressed but he would never admit it or seek help. How do you deal with the cravings.or help them go away. There is no chance of relapsing but we just want this to be over with.

  11. sharlene says

    When I met my partner he was full of life, he had a good job and was over joyed to be dating me. I knew he smoked meth but in my circle of friends at the time that was no surprise. I started smoking it with him and things got so out of control. We both quit a year ago, have not touched it since. Meth was not a problem for me, I used it for 6months and it was easy to say goodbye to it. No cravings no nothing. However, my partner had been using for 8years. He wasn’t a junkie hanging out for it. But he did use every weekend, by the end it got really bad. He almost lost his mind. But a year later we have come light years from where we were, I want to marry this man. But, he still struggles with cravings and bad thoughts. I think he maybe depressed but he would never admit it or seek help. How do you deal with the cravings.or help them go away. There is no chance of relapsing but we just want this to be over with.

  12. crystal says

    I’ve been clean for almost a year and it took me almost two months to get to where i could get out of bed. My depression and anxiety were through the roof but now that I’ve beaten that demon I’m better than ever. I hope that everyone struggling with this addiction finds three help they need. I did it on my own. Relapsed a couple times but only for a day or two each time and then when i realized the effect it had on me i felt stupid for even thinking about it. It’s extremely hard but Vertu possible and very worth it! God luck to all who need it!

  13. crystal says

    I’ve been clean for almost a year and it took me almost two months to get to where i could get out of bed. My depression and anxiety were through the roof but now that I’ve beaten that demon I’m better than ever. I hope that everyone struggling with this addiction finds three help they need. I did it on my own. Relapsed a couple times but only for a day or two each time and then when i realized the effect it had on me i felt stupid for even thinking about it. It’s extremely hard but Vertu possible and very worth it! God luck to all who need it!

  14. crystal says

    The cravings don’t go away until you know you Ste done. If you still have cravings you will likely relapse but you can pull yourself back out! I never thought my cravings would go away and for some they don’t. It’d mostly just about having the will to better yourself for you, family, God, friends, any and everyone who if there to sorry you through this difficult time in your lives

  15. kord says

    I’ve been sober now for exactly five months now. I was a hard addict for a year and a half, I was using every day so happy to have stopped this it really took a toll on my life. I’ve done it all on my own no doctor or anything but some times I think my body maybe still maybe trying to get rid of the toxin. I seem to over heat a lot every day and I start sweating has anyone else felt this and will it ever go away?
    Also to everyone else struggling with this drug you can quit if u really want to quit its hard but u can do it.

  16. Alleycat says

    I been a user for about 12 years when i would come in from working out of state i would use on my time off. I was a functional addict. Until the love of my live started shooting i had never withness first hand what this drug could reduce a person to. She has been to rehab, prison and now rehab again. It was a real i opener for me and i am clean. So far i havent even thought about using because most of my days are spent worring about her recovery. I will stand by her as long as she continues to try. This drug will distroy your family life. Dont be fooled you are dead inside while on this drug no happy ending.

  17. natalie says

    I have used meth for the past 7 years of my life.. I’m 26 now and the past two years i was in a really bad place and realized how bad a hold it had on my whole existence. I honestly still don’t know who i am without it. But i realized how much i don’t want it anymore. No one in my life knows that i have done it that long. They still don’t. And i ended up saving every penny i could to travel to London to get away from the sh*t town i live in and saw how happy i was able to be, sober, myself, not even thinking about it. And now i’m back home and in a town I can’t get out of. No support and doing it on your own is so hard. My room is in the garage, no windows. I have good days, and then days i just sleep. My life is passing me by but i just still can’t be consistent with keeping myself motivated to find my way in life here. I haven’t bought meth in months now, and was doing really well until now i’ve found every piece and scraped to get little hits just to escape pathetically. I had one night my friend came by to give me some adderall so i could at least have a little help in getting up to try to use my days, and we smoked and i truly decided that i absolutely don’t want any part of what i had done for so long. There’s no one in this town, or in my life, that i am ready to trust with my story because i know it wouldn’t be possible to have the support i would hope for, not even close. I hope to get through this, and i hope i find a way soon. I know i don’t want to do it anymore, but i wish i knew how to save the rest of my 20s to stop living in this darkness as everyday goes by. I wish i had the support some people are so blessed to have. I wish i could have been everything i had thought i could be, without the drug ending up the only thing i knew. Best of luck to all of you.

    • Jay penja says

      I was smoking meth on Monday after noon , couldn’t sleep till Wednesday moring at 2am I went to sleep , and woke up at 9 am and took a shower , and forced my self to eat and drink , and then wenesday after noon I was smoking again , till Thursday 12 noon went to lay down on the bed and w
      Slept for like 2 hours!! But THIS IS MY FIRST TIME EVER USED METH…
      My biggest mistake in my life.. And no I have the feeling to smoking or anything.. So I just want to know is there any effect to my face or anywhere else ? Please I’m like losing my mind here thinking and looking threw goggle trying to finger out !!

      • Brad says

        I’ve been on it for 8 years and never had any problems with scratching and soars maybe a pimple or 2 from a greasy all awake all night face but that’s it

  18. Kelly says

    I’ve been using method for over a year pretty hard core. I smoked it. I tried to quit 2 Weeks ago and slept for 4 days round the clock so went back using to function again. I’ve tried to stop again. On day 2 & the nightmares, fear and random noises I hear around the house jolt me upright and I start balling my eyes out. I’m terrified but will NOT go back using. Wish I had my very own angel to cuddle into at night. So freaky and scary.

  19. Kelly says

    Oh and also, when do the nightmares, sleep parallelisis and fear and terror stop? Thanks from Australia….

  20. Kelly says

    Freaky nightmares stopping thank God., now just having weird ass ones. Still sleeping round the clock. Been 6 days junk free. Soooooo tired still.

  21. Dawn says

    I’ve been sober almost 7 years off meth, but I did it on my own. After I quit, I suffered real bad anxiety and had panic attacks. I still have anxiety. I was a daily user unless I was sleeping for a few days. I miss the drug , but I can’t do it anymore cause it’s only fun if your 100% down. I wonder if the anxiety will just longer forever. Good luck people, being sober is hard and dull sometimes but so much more rewarding and you look better. :)

  22. J says

    It’s hard bug you can do it…. You will sleep and feel so exhausted when you quit. Expect 7 days of sleeping and eating rubbish. Week two – 4 – you will crave sugar and feel depressed. It gets easier every day. Don’t think about it and don’t associate with people who do it around you. Replace with healthy options like yoga. Do not exercise (gym) for first month as you’ll be fatigued…. Slowly introduce exercise…. When you have cravings and you will try looking at photos of people who use – that helps. Avoid alcohol in situations….
    See professional psychologist – there is a reason why you started in first place, address those issues.
    It’s a disgusting drug… Ruins lives and ruined me for a short brief time after 10 years away from it! I will never look back. How can anyone enjoy staying up and being obsessed by it. Don’t look back just move forward and focus on you! Good luck

  23. J says

    Dawn/Kelly with anxiety it can be helped. There are techniques, I’ve been taught by natural healers (see a good practitioner) . Learn NOT to fight it…moment of anxiety let yourself notice it and feel it…. Once you recognise it and feel it by addressing it, it goes away. If you can’t sleep trying writing down thoughts.
    Breathing is important and yoga is great :-)

  24. Alie says

    Wow, loved reading all these great stories, i was actually googling “ways to quit meth” and came across this website. My story goes like this. I’ve been using for the past 3 yrs , my fiance 22 yrs . We both seem to use to numb whatever it is to numb in our lives, (pain, sorrow, stress anger) etc… at least for me it is and i also drink a fifth vodka daily. Since day one for me I’ve always thought, “no worries”, i can stop whenever i need and want to stop, well two trips to jail in the past year with this last time serving 2 months, losing my kids, losing my looks each and every day, losing my health, but definitely not losing my faith in God. This is why i know that we can overcome this demon of a drug and with the success stories that i have read, i am one step closer to having my success story on here as well to read. And hopefully someone like myself will Google ,ways to quit meth” and share their success story as well. Pay it forward. ♥♥♥ God bless and good to everyone★★★

  25. Lisa says

    My husband & I both used everyday for 5 years. We are both over 3 years sober now. We have been to hell & back together so, I will say YES, a couple can quit together! The biggest fear (for us) of quitting was the withdrawl & knowing that we would both be in bed, around the clock, for a week but, we dealt with it. I would say I got my sense of normalcy back after being clean about 6 months. It takes time…..don’t give up!!! The anxiety, fatigue, & nightmares do stop! I lost so much during that 5 years that now I look back & think WTH were we thinking to do that evil drug for so long? We have absolutely no desire to go back to that lifestyle but, you have to cut ties with all that do it or are associated with it. If you don’t, you will never quit & be able to stay sober. I hope this helps all who are struggling with this drug.

  26. stephen says

    Hey everyone! I’m 25yo and went from being an all-american guy to using method all day every day for 2yrs straight. You’d be amazed to see how quick and how far down meth took me in a short period of time. Went from having everything going for me to absolute hell. I tried to quit on my own but only lasted a couple weeks. Obsession was too much for me so I went to a rehab in los Angeles. Did a 30 day program there. At the facility I heard a recovered drug addict speak at one of the groups I was in and I could totally relate to him. Method was great for a while! It gave me that sense of ease and comfort of escaping reality. Every time I took a hit I would just keep going and keep going. My life became unmanageable. I had to have meth to function. Meth was my solution for so long. I used it to get through my days, but it stopped working and was destroying me. I needed a different solution. A solution without the negative side effects. I found that solution in a 12 step program. Any addict or alcoholic who is reading this PLEASE do yourself a life saving favor and join a 12 step program. Find a sponsor who will guide you through the 12 steps and your life will change before your very eyes! We have a chronic disease that is incurable but 100% treatable. I have a yr clean next week July 22nd and I completely owe it to the 12 steps and the grace of God! God does not make too hard terms with those who earnestly seek Him. God Bless!

  27. Lily says

    This message is meant for all the families of addicts. My daughter started using Christmas of 2012 and everything went south very fast. In January 2013 she was arrest for possession, we fought to protect her but she continued down this journey….ended up homeless for three months, went through 2 inpatient rehabs and 2 outpatient rehabs, finally 3 months in jail was life altering…however she did not have the wherewithal until about a long year of sobriety During all of this it felt like my family was living hell. We finally were able to find the best addiction management psychiatrist and my daughter was diagnosed with bi polar and now is on a mood stabler…she also keeps busy in college. We are supportive and grateful for everyday…our family is now stronger then ever. Meth destroys everything and I mean everything….you lie, cheat, steal, loss trust, bankrupt and breaks apart families…this journey will literal break your heart and spirit and if you are lucky will eventual leave a mark verses a headstone to reflect on. Any addicts reading this post, I might not literally know what it feels like to come down from the high or deal with the major depression that sets in, caring for absolutely nothing but I can tell you it can be done I’ve seen it with my own eyes with my own daughter. It does get better, please try and surround yourself with a support system…you do have people that care, get away from your old friends…you will need to start a new life…exercise it helps with the dopamine and serotonin that has been depleted, find hobbies..hiking…school, find something that you give 110% and engulf yourself in this…you can do this I promise. Familes you are not alone, surround yourselves in support groups or just support within the family works too…and research everything from evident based treats to what goes on inside the head. The best advice I heard when I didn’t think I could make it…eveything will be okay…its simplistic but true….you don’t feel like it’s true especially when you are in the midst of the storm but it will. Good luck to all, my heart and prayers are with you.

  28. Ashley says

    My husband has been a meth addict for 11 years. His parents got him addicted. Life has been a living hell. Nobody in my family really knows, so they think he’s an asshole and I should leave him. He could get it for free whenever he wanted. Especially from his own parents. We moved away recently to leave behind the people who lure him in and offer him meth on a daily basis. He’s withdrawing, which I’ve been thru.. He’s been sober for 30 days at the most in 11 years.. But that was in 2006 and it’s constant usage since then. He’s completely miserable and nasty while coming off. He says he hates life, he hates me, he’s mean and stays away from the kids.. I guess that’s for the better though. Do long term meth users act this way while withdrawing? What should I do? He doesn’t get out of bed either. When will he get better? I just want him free from this hellish life he’s lived for 11 years. If I leave him, he will die because nobody in his family cares and they all know. This is all for the sake of himself and the kids. He wants to be free, he’s told me.. But when he’s coming off he’s so different that while he’s using.

  29. alex says

    my name is alex i was a meth user for 5 years until i finally got sober by getting incarcerated for the 10th time I FINALLY took it serious and the feeling of facing a lot of time in prison really got my attention. I was a 16 years old and wanted to fit in with a certain crowd and then i happened that quick one of my friends was a meth dealer/gang member and i looked up to him so since i felt like i could trust these people i just went with it and thought it was great times until after a couple months or so i started to realize the nature of that beast called meth. then i started dealing it and my habits grew out of control that was when i started getting in trouble with the law and that grew out of control enormously it was like everytime I let my guard down i was getting arrested. also i had my first real relationship when I was 18 and the first time i ever fell in love that lasted for 5 months and my girlfriend was also an addict so she used with me in the end we went through a horrible break up that ended in the worst way possible way so being heart broke which i had never experienced such a terrible feeling in my life i fell even into an even deeper hole into the darkness and was using so badly just to ease the pain after 2 1/2 years of misery and drug addiction i was completely lost i had no true friends everyone around me was an addict all i had was a caring family that i couldnt face while my life was going down the drain then one night i had been arrested and was busted for possession i knew it was time to give it all up and thanks to that and two months of jail i realized that it was time to make a big change in my life so i get out of jail and i go back to the same shit hanging out with a meth user he passed the pipe to me and i was weak and smoked it then a month later the courts put me on a really strict program called intervention and made me wear a sleep monitor for eight months and costed me 20 dollars a week to either wear it or have my bond revoked or go back to jail so then i successfully made it out of that program sober and clean with a clear mind and then sentencing time came and ill admit i was scared for my life just realizing everything i was doing to myself reality hit hard and i was blessed the judge sentenced me to 18 months of probation so after that i really started making progress i was 22 years old and wanted to do the right thing for myself so i successfully completed 18 months of probation and 19 months sober and at 23 i started working with my dad and decided to become an electrician since my background check was so horrible it was a decent job that i still have to this day but its been a rough road i cope with busting my rear everyday because it is construction and i want a better life at all cost. then being too comfortable i relapsed like a fool after one night of getting drunk had alot to do with it and i just felt way out of line that but that relapse taught me that i still hated the drug and from then on wanted nothing more to do with it and now its been 3 months since that and im still trying to get my head straight i worry what kind of damage has it done to my mind i know i cant feel proper emotions except alot of anger at times and i wonder if ill ever be able to recover my senses 100% so i am going to stay sober forever and see what happens

  30. Michele says

    I just tried quitting and I am just like your husband only I am the meanest ugliest bitchiest evil c___ I don’t remember being like this the last time I quit which was a long time ago and I had been using for like 6 years then and quit for like 5 now its been about 9 years I am old now so i am more depressed than last time and the only reason I am quitting is because I don’t want to end up an old hag it may be too late for that tho I did not succeed this time but i am going to try again and again and again whatever it takes it may b too late but i will not let this shit win.

  31. says

    Iv been using meth of and on for a year would do it for like a week and then get clean and then I did it for 6 months straight, detoxed myself at home. Was sober for 5 months relapsed and used for 2 months straight. I’m almost 6 months sober and I really feel like getting high. I have a lot of health problems and I’m extremely lonely I sometimes wonder what the point is to get sober. My life isn’t good ether way.

  32. Johnny says

    It’s awesome to come across this website. I’ve been scared to google “trying to quit meth”, but i’m glad i finally did it. the notes you all have left on here give me a lot of hope. i’ve been using, at points abusing, meth for probably a decade now. there were times when it was very very dark (daily or every other day use), but for the last few years it’s more like every 10 to 30 days. sometimes more frequent, but in very small quantities so that i don’t lose too much sleep. the fact that i’ve been able to hold down a job, and actually be quite successful, only ads to my fucked up notion that i can continue to use this drug. i can not. i don’t want to. i need help and i’m going to get it. starting with this site.

    if any of you would be willing to chat with me online, please let me know. i’m looking for pointers and accountability. if you happen to live in the SF, perhaps you can recommend a support group and/or therapist.

    thank you all for posting your stories of successful recovery…. it’s incredibly helpful for those of us starting that journey.

  33. angel says

    Ive been using crystal for 10yrs. And recently decided to get sober I’ve been sober 19days its my first time trying to.be clean so.im.going to take it one day at a time.

  34. Steph says

    Johnny- I wonder how you are doing?

    I am in the same boat as you were, I am scared of quitting, but I have too… I think it would be great to have someone to chat with about this, help each other through..

    If your still out there, let me know… I have been doing math for 2 yrs, the last year has been almost everyday.. have a husband and three kids to get for.

    Stephanie

  35. kristian says

    It saddens me to read all of your comments….I hope that u all find peace And self worth. Meth like other drugs depletes all of that. Someone out there needs u to live. U were all put here for a reason. I dont go to church, and im not here to preach. But u all are better then that bitch called crystal. She wants to suck the life out of u all. Please get help. Prison and a casket is not the answer. Don’t ever lose hope. U are all better then that. I hope this message finds u.

  36. Jeffery motyka says

    I used to inject meth heavely for 2 years. I did a rehab and quit. I have been clean for 7 months and 28 days today. The biggest thing I attribute my sucessfully to is NA a 12 step program without it i would relapse but there I found the support I will always continue to go to NA.

  37. Echo S. Yankee says

    Hi there;

    Im using myth since 2007 thru smoke… My routine of taking myth is two time every other day, usually afternoon and evening… At first, I just simply taking it when i got something to work and need some extra energy… But I can’t help it, i got worsen and worsen… Right now is 4:19 pm december 31, 2014, this is the day i promise to myself will be last time to see this cystal… So, yesterday i withraw some money my account which is almost empty because of this sh*t, that money came from my business which i sold for the purpose travellling abroad to change my direction, but its now almost gone… Back to my story… I bought a lot of it… I want to feel the effect and taste of this for the last time… I have until 11:59 this evening… I want to celebrate new year without it… So guys help me pray to my success of quitting….. Im afraid, i got no one to talk to… No one except me in our family doing what i was doing… I got no but trust in myself and my prayers …… Thanks!!! Happy new year everyone!!!

  38. says

    I am a recovering meth addict I used on and off for 20 years , I went through a 30 day rehab in 07 , got out , and after 3 months clean I relapsed , I thought for a short time that all the statistics were right , I would never get clean , but now it’s almost 6 years later and I have now been running a recovery house of my own here in ms , I’ve had over 500 men come through the Branch Of Hope , it has been an amazing ride to say the least , to all of you that are still on the grips of this crap I say to you , it can be overcame but I for one do not believe it can be done alone .

  39. Usman says

    i started using meth from 9th august 2014 and yesterday on 19th January 2015 i decided to quit it.
    but my body and brain not allowing me to do so.
    I m shivering and my head is banging..
    i m feeling so weak that i cant even stand.
    please help me
    please….

  40. Chris says

    First off congrats on walking away from it!!
    It’s really not bad quitting just dig deep down and move on
    With your life. Feel hopeless? Lost? Want your life back?
    Well.. You’re a new person, you’re on a different path
    Now. You have a very important role in life so
    Smile and start over.

  41. Kaylee says

    You’re not alone… I decided to quit 5 days ago & still going thru the same things… I started using badly in august 2014, I then started selling the beginning of dec 2014 which made it I could get ahold of more an more… Quitting hasn’t been easy for me, but stay positive and believe in yourself that you can get thru it. I sleep & avoid the users.

  42. Sarah says

    I have been shooting meth since 09/2013. I just recently stopped less than 48 hours ago. The urge to use is so strong and I am so angry I can’t even explain. I am so tired but afraid to sleep because the nightmares are that scary

  43. says

    Hello Lara here,
    I have read all of your post, and am so so very proud of all efforts I hear of, first choosimg to quit!!
    I have an interesting story which I have not been able to tell! I mean really? Very few know that I starting using, heck i myself am still shocked to see at times that I, I myself after over 1/2 my life of not touching any drugs! That I did with my boyfriend who introduced me to this choice of drug so for the first time ever for meth i tried was on January1st 2014. I don’t have much time to tell my story, don’t evrn know if I should here? But I sure feels great to at least get that out. I don’t want to continue this and throughout the times of not using of not having it. I have not had much pysicAL withdrawals, I can see but the emotional and pyscoligy the depression … yuk much more than u can bare at times. This stuff has left me in a world that J don’t know of, a world of loss.

  44. Jordan says

    i quit drugs crack xstacy etc.. 9 years ago when my girlfriend at the time got pregnant. it didnt seem hard at all.. i did briefly over a 6 month period use oxy id have about 1 80mg pill a day or so quit that easy didnt even have withdraws. and i may have used meth maybe 3-4 times in those 9 years.. i went through something horrendous i was betrayed its a long story but it was enough to have me tying my belt to the basement rafter while my kids were upstairs. i dropped 50 pounds in a month without dope i was a mess .. i started using meth been on it for 5 months i want off but my mind is so twisted still i dunno if i can ..after 3 days i start to not want to live

  45. WayBigD says

    I’ve been a meth user since 1996. Every day. Every day for over 19 years. Never gone more than 2 days without it. It has become a part of my everyday life (This is life?). At $100 a day (and that’s a conservative average), I’ve blown $693,000. I’ve lost 20+ friends to the prison system, and a few to the undertaker too. I’m 43 years old, and 1/2 of my life thus far has been wasted. I’VE been wasted. Don’t let it happen to you. Today is the first step of a very long journey for me. Today is the last day I will ever use meth. I have put a handgun where I used to keep my meth pipe. The way I see it, it’ll have the same effect.

  46. WayBigD says

    There is a song by Jamey Johnson, titled THE HIGH COST OF LIVING. I think anyone trying to kick an addiction should listen to it. It really hits close to home.

  47. me says

    I feel your pain. I have been on meth for 5 1/2 years. Today is day 2 clean. I am taking Wellbutrin which has made the come down bearable. I am also starting an outpatient rehab program. I feel like I can kick it this time. See your doctor for help. Good luck and I wish you the best.

  48. Josoul says

    WayBigD…thanks brotha. I just watched the video..so true is what that song is…..he hadnt felt a colder hell than jail…and its TOO TRUE! Hang in there brotha…..we can do this!!!!!

  49. Jason says

    Ive been to rehab for meth use and been doing a 12 step program. I wanted to quit meth but doing the NA program says no alcohol. Ive been clean 57 days now.
    I feel like having a few drinks with my friends that don’t do meth and never have.
    What do others think?
    Does drinking really lead me back to meth use?

  50. Jeff says

    Hi everyone, I have had a meth problem for over 2yrs now and this is my second serious attempt to quit. On my first I attempt lasted nearly 4 months and I have been sober for just over 3 months this time. I’m hoping somebody can enlighten me on why it is that I seem to have become more easily agitated in the last few weeks? Is this possibly still a symptom of the recovery process or just me? I really haven’t thought about using again so I’m not really sure…. Thanks.

    • Kelsey says

      I know from experience that yes… Irritability is a symptom of withdrawl. You just need to learn how to deal with that stress/ anxiety in a positive manner. Now let me also say this … GET OUT NOW, WHILE YOU STILL CAN. DONT EVER LOOK BACK!
      Meth is the devil incarnate. I was an addict for 14 years. It ruined my life.
      I must say however I’m EXTREMELY lucky to be clean now and there is still hope for me to live a full, meaningful life.

    • Kayla says

      Anger spikes up and down sometimes uncontrollable for months at a time this can last year’s as I am almost 4 years sober and still want to use, clouded mind from the anger and periods of decreased mental capacity can last week’s to months followed by somewhat normalcy and clarity just waiting in limbo expecting symptoms will return it’s just a matter of when. I also hate this article. One day sober nation downplays meth addiction to other drugs as if it’s easy and there are no physical hardships past the two weeks and long term affects eventually dissipate within a year that b/s and then other times there’s an article on how hard it is but it never seems to cover it completely. An ex addict should write for them a hard core IV user with a broken mind, most likely permanent. . Me. Ha. What self loathing. anyway. Yes anger comes and goes but real love if you are ever able to find or feel it again can help pacify the emotional swings especially being with someone who knows what it’s like, a friend you can talk to and be open with your thoughts will be the best therapy.

  51. angel says

    This is my 3 rd time trying to quit. I have a twin who also uses and it makes difficult to stop if we r ever together we always use. I want yo feel happy again with skies blue and grand green…everything so beautiful when i am sober . Im one week in. One more wk i think i should start the grateful to b alive phase of recovery. Best of luck to u all .

  52. Ashtin says

    I’m 3 weeks sober. I’ve used for about 1 1/2 years. I’m also only 18.
    My dad, almost 40 has been using nearly 25 years. I’ve considered rehab many times, my problem is the people I surround myself with. I’ve recently moved out of town with my boyfriend of 3 years, who has never used drugs. He’s kept me from using, in the past & now. I feel like I’m gonna be okay, because I’ve excluded myself from my “dope friends”. I’m extremely worried about my dad. My meth experience was a quick & extreme one. I had a house I rented, a job. & car, within a month lost it all but my car, which I got & currently have a title loan on. Ran around with dead beat nobody’s, who wanted nothing but to bring me down worse. I became the world’s best, dope dealer, meth head, sleaze bag whore. It was all a quick and done deal. But with my dad, its been a long drawn out process. When I look at him, I see myself. It destroys me. Tonight’s, for the first time he has told me he wanted to be clean. We’ve bullshitted about it a few times. But he’s never said that. I need help figuring out how to help him. “I’m gonna need your help, I’ve been looking online all night trying to find out how to go about quitting after all these years.” Is the message he sent tonight

    • julia says

      This made me cry I can relate my dad also was a user he ended up over dosing.. you are doing the best thing by taking him seriously and wanting to help him get clean. I have been using off and on since I was 13 thinking I didn’t have a addictive personality until about a yr ago I couldn’t wake up with out it everyday motel uto motel getting high feeling like i couldn’t help myself there was no way. .. cried every day asking why I can’t help myself than 6 months later I wasn’t able to get it almost drove my car into the freeway wall talking to myself begging god help me and I told my self this is it and quit stayed in the bed a few days tired lazy hungry irritated mad but sucked it up and let myself go through it. I would drive around listen to music drinking monsters smiling just randomly smiling I was the happy girl again I felt normal again promised myself I would never go back and after 3 weeks I got high again and every few weeks got high when ever I would drink every single time I feel nothing but guilt right away the day after. I’m hating that alcohol brings me back to using every time. I’m working on myself I can’t keep doing this the sadness I get everytime I use again is the the most loneliest feeling ever. I keep promising myself not to drink and keep failing. I refuse to go back to that dark lonely road of using everyday. If someone would like to talk let me know I’m 23yrs old just needing positive people to talk with.

  53. Sol says

    When i got with him he had moved to AZ to get a new life, a new start yes, a clean slate and he did…. we got together about 2 wks after he arrived. My boyfriend has been clean for 10 yrs…. 5 months ago he was depressed and turned back to his only way of coping. he tries to stop..he actually stopped 28 days… Then around the mountain again… He is on day 6, my life is in such turmoil that finding the strength to survive for me has been a challenge… He’s lost….. my whole thought of “hanging on to him” is a joke…u can’t lose something that you already lost… I have been hanging on to an illusion…wish I didn’t have kids so I could just check out… Instead the pain consumes me the helplessness of not being able to help him destroyed me! I wake up frightened several times a night expecting him to have bailed out while I slept out doing meth.. Finally I just burned a msg into my leg- literally burned”I am not losing anything that I have not already lost” it sounds insane but the realization that it was over before the battle began freed me of suicidal thoughts but the shakes continue, as does chain smoking ( just cigs) meth hurts so much MORE than the user… All I can do is pray, this man was my life and soul mate!

  54. Shawn Voshell says

    After 3 years heavy and pure meth use awfully, I forced myself to quit but later 2 months of sobering my wife made me angry due to BOOSTED MOOD I fell into a domestic violence to 2-day jail for the first time of my life. Am age 42. Very hard to keep myself behaving until I found a church I like. Became faithful with Jesus Christ to God. Went through counseling and passed 2 months earlier. Court judge satisfied and dismissed the domestic violence case. Next thing to do is battling for me to return myself back to my family while my wife’s Order of Protection against me. I have 3 kids with the same wife all of them are very unforgivable to me. I am continuing to work out through court action along with my “still open case” counseling. Just don’t focus on my wife to remain failure. Only focus on my kids to remain successful. My BOOSTED MOOD is GONE!!! My shyness came back with new mind and new body. Wow! I am so very happy and still pretty happy during my marriage separation for almost a year. I feel very easy to have patience. I have no desire of wanting at all. Only I can handle myself like a joyful sitting duck without any hunter to spot me. My mind is very clear with the TRUTH that keeps setting me FREE!

    YOU CAN DO IT!!! With God all things are possible. How? Love God first fully, Then love yourself completely. Then you can starting loving with the world to RE-MASTER daily mood. There is no way for me to have a relapse of any drugs and alcohol!!! I don’t ever have any serious suicide feeling. I BEAT METH!!!

    I thank the very work of Lord Jesus Christ. God is love which is good!

  55. scott says

    I’m not a user and will not ever be. I’m here because my wife is an addict who is currently in jail for making bad decisions because of her meth use. As a spouse it is a nightmare, I want to bail her out so badly but I know she will just go seeking the stuff again. We are in the final stages of divorce because of it. I can’t get any support from her family and my family just wants me to move on to never look back. I’m just at a complete loss because I can’t keep an eye on her activity 24 hours a day. She claims I control her but I see it as trying to steer her in the right direction. Anyways to the people here relating their stories, I’m telling you that you are hurting everybody around you.

  56. Eddie stunkarf says

    I’ve used every day for about
    500 days with a day or two off here and there.
    I have not seriously tryed to quit. When I do go a day or two one time three. My problem is depression cause I like the motivation it gives me to work and plan my life

    I only snort or ingest it.
    I have only done too much 4 or 5 times.
    Usually because of the purity of it. Most is cut 50% I think.
    They can make it look like it’s
    pure by rebaking it to look like all rock.
    The good thing is I want to quit for good cause It henders me from running , swimming and cycling.
    I did Triathlons for 10 yesrs then my wife left me by her choice and after a year of
    going to see her every weekend she abruptly ended all contact.
    I worked with buddies who could get anything.
    So it had been 25 years since I used it but I ask him to get me some planning on using once in a while. At first It took away all my worry and I got. Brave and told her come and get your stuff now.
    I got back with my old girlfriend who is my true soulmate but she had a
    Oxycontin addiction and we
    Thought it was Heaven cause
    we understood each and no one could belittle us.

    But as you know it got bad due to being hard to get
    It sometimes and her best friend supplier got greedy on the price cause she knew she
    “Had to have it till her nasty
    divorce was finished.”
    So, I went from doing Ironman Montremblant Canada IM 2 1/2 mile swim
    transition to a 112 mile bike in the mountains then only a 26.2 mile marathon run.
    I was in such great shape and it was unbelievable the shape I was in.
    Now after 500 almost non-stop days of Chystal use I can
    2 to 5 miles Max and bike 10 miles and swim 25 yds. Lol!!!

    How long will it take me get over the worst of quitting ?
    My advantages are (1.) I want to quit. (2) I have a strong desire to train for races (3) I am still thank God financially secure. (4) I have Trish who understands. (5) God will help if I do my part.

    So what do you suggest??
    Thanks
    Eddie

  57. Eddie stewart says

    Oh
    About her Oxycontin abuse.
    She never does more than
    one. ( 80 mg ) a day and sometimes a valuam , Zanex or two.
    She wants to quit Also.

    What can she do ??

  58. greg says

    Coke in the 80s quite doing that
    Got married she started doing crank what a bitch i gave up i did it to numb the pain still worked everyday
    Out of the 23 years of doing crank i stopped a few times went to jail 2 times
    Dope got so bunk i couldnt do it went back to work found good dope
    here we go worked sucked when you do dope
    started growing pot paid all the bills all the dope i wanted
    That came to a end when my partner burned me for 12000 bucks
    I went and collected he calls the cops on me 5 felonys 11000 bucks to bail out
    I go to court for months my life is on hold they finely drope the charges because he dont show up for court
    My mom buys a house and for mothers day my wife and i remodele the 3 bedroom
    Being the loving mother she is s

  59. greg says

    She is gave me the old house down the street this whole time i was able to stay high
    I ran out of money so i dont have the money to drive the 3 hours to score
    Thank god the dope wasnt that good so coming down is not that much of a bitch
    Its been a week it sucks
    I could get high but i think the time is up im lucky my wife is here ahe is quiting too

  60. kameo says

    hello my fiance has been sober for a year then relapsed again as to stress I n our relation and having a step so and his new son here now. he tells me he’s so sorry and cries so much over it and says he knows he messed up and just wants to be happy and quit for good . he finally admitted to me when I asked that he did relapse and did it again and addicted once again when I was away with the kids. and said he would talk to me when he has the craving and then hide it again from me and I found his bat used in his p9cket and confronted him again about it and he said he did again and was going to tell me about it after the next day .. says he wants to get his leg together and his 2 friends r recovering addicts ad well .. I’m just so worried he’s going to keep lying to me and keep using . but days he does want to stop again and be the best man for me and the kids he can. what can I do to help him through it and be the best husband and father he can . cause I know he can when he’s sober and trying so hard he’s the man I fell in love with and a amazing dad who I could see myself with for the rest of my life if he only stayed that person not the angry man that he has been when using . also smokes weed but alpt less like once morning g and night to help him through it. I just need help c I can’t talk to my parents about it or family bc they will just tell me t0 leave him bc they sat I can do better. r I love this man to death and I know he loves me just as much h when he’s in the right of mind and does whatever he can t0 show his love for me and the kids. so please o just need advice on how to go forth and help him through it bit no hurt my kids in the process his stepson is almost 3 and his son is 3 months old. please I’m tired of crying all the time and worrying for him . I just want to get help so he can get through it the best and get a job and be the man I know he can be . please . Thank you !

  61. PrettiiGal says

    Hi’ I’m 33 days clean and this morning I woke up clear headed’ went about my new changed routine’ but then all of a sudden’ the thought of just wanting ” one more taste” popped into my head and hasn’t left me all day!!
    ( I’m still yet to do anything stupid as of yet!!)
    But my question to you all: ” Is this to be expected? Has anybody else experienced these types of feelings’ this far in?”
    Up until today’ the thought hasn’t even popped into my mind as I have changed my mindset’ routine’ secluded myself from that circle of people’ have basically put myself and have been on house arrest’
    Please let me know when will this feeling pass? As it is as ever so strong in me right now as it was this morning!!
    Thanks

  62. Scarlett says

    Edited my post to make it shorter. Please just post this comment:

    I am a college student and have gone through two periods of using within the past 2 years. The first period was for 3 months and the second for 6 months. I smoked, snorted, and orally ingested the drug. I went from using ADHD medications like adderall (my favorite is vyvanse however) to using meth because I wanted to do my best in school. Both times I made the jump from prescription amphetamines to meth were during finals when I couldn’t get ADHD medications. Both times I was not able to stop once finals were done. I feel like my story is important to share because I genuinely wanted to better my life. I am a perfectionist and put a lot of pressure on myself. Meth seemed like an easy solution. The drug tricks you into believing it is helping you. It does- at first. It made me a superwoman but after awhile it became less and less effective.

    Slowly I became dependent on meth to function. I was not able to maintain the lifestyle I used to. I needed to take a capsule an hour before I was even able to get out of bed. I couldn’t live a normal life if I didn’t have it. I had extreme paranoia about the people in my life finding out, letting down my family, etc. I saw shadow people. I was participating in fraudulent activities. I knew I needed to stop so I checked myself into a 30 day inpatient rehab.

    I would also like to mention that before I ever used I was diagnosed with anxiety and bipolar type II disorder. I think I liked meth because it triggers my manic states, which I always find fun. I am an artist and love creating, and it helped me with that. The flip side of these EXTREME high highs were the low lows. Sometimes my comedowns were so bad that I physically could not be alone. At times I was suicidal. I had such bad anxiety I could not get a full breath of air. If my boyfriend was not there to help me during the dark times (of which there were many) I would have had to drive myself to a hospital.

    My parents still don’t know I ever used. I hid it from almost everyone. I have been sober from meth for about 3 months and still have trouble with my mood and energy. I have little motivation to do things. I’m sick and tired of feeling sick and tired! When will this end get better? I have no desire to go down the meth path again, but I still find myself using ADHD medications because I hate not being able to get anything done. I’m have trouble being patient with myself. I’m not prescribed ADHD medications and don’t want to take them for my whole life. My question is wether or not this is an “okay” method of making the transition easier? Or am I only prolonging my struggles? Thanks for sharing your stories!

  63. says

    I have been twelling now for about 8 years now and I loved it I was doing about 1/2 g from Thursday to Saturday every week I would work out when I was off it and just be normal I was so happy I was doing better at my job and a way better lover to my missus no one had a clue I was on it I was thinking the media had it wrong as it just improved every thing in my life. But then came the day I could get a 1/2ball for a little bit more for what I was paying so I went he’ll yer but having so much I didn’t stop Monday to Sunday with 4_5 hours of sleep and minimal food didn’t want to socialise just smoke up by myself it’s been about 3 months like this and wish I could go back to how I was but to far going now so I decided to quit 2 days ago but all I can think about it how nice a good sesh would go right about now. How can I stop thinking of it as it is pretty fucking tempting right about now.

    • deb says

      Hi brad i was curious to how you are doing… im praying for u…your story is alot like how i got started years ago…

  64. jessie says

    I lost weight over the summer 2015 by exercising and snoring meth and I lost weight but I’ve been sober since November 2015 and I’ve gained weight already , its not much to notice un lease u really pay attention to your body.

  65. Andrew J says

    I was 2 years clean off of a 15 year Meth sentence(death sentence). I was doing so dam good, so good and then I was offered some pills (Adderol),nothing I haven’t came across before I’ve always been able to brush it off and say no. But this day for some reason was very different , it was if I had no conscience, no filter if u will and I can’t explain why because I do y know, but something made me take those pills, which led straight back into Meth full blown 2 days later. I work everyday I take care of my kids and wife (unlike previous Meth use) I have noticed I am not being as involved , I distance myself from family because I dont want them to know. My wife I let stay at home with our children and I take care of her . That’s what she wants.(even though she got a college degree and hasn’t worked since graduating 3 years ago) she is now wanting to leave me because she suspects something is off, tells me that her “husband ” is not here foresay. I want help I don’t understand how in the fuck I can go from 2 years clean to full blown active addiction ie: snorting 1/2 g hot rails ,smoking bowl after bowl, going through about 3 grams a week by myself and i feel I am not close to the end…. Its hard because even when I was clean she would still accuse me of being high, when does this whirlwind end? When does it get easier? Why did my brain not work that day I took them pills? 2 fucking years and I blew it in less than 20 hours. I feel horrible, I want my wife and kids happy .how will I ever get back to being clean again? I say I’ll stop and breAk my pipe, throw away my Shit, but the next day it’s like ” o hey there little pretty lonely clear rock come here” I’m feeling depressed , wife has nothing but harsh words when I wanna reach out to her as in (your a pos) ( your a fucking idiot) (I’m leaving you) etc.etc. anyways I’m high right now so I’m rambling but I want to know there’s some sort of hope out there for me. And if you have any advice on my brain going MIA that day it d be appreciated. Sincerely a fucking loser addict

  66. deb says

    I have been detoxing kyself ar home for 2 weeks now i have no energy to even get out of bed and hot flashes are destroying me…i have used for 20 years and now im 50 and dont want it no more but cant continue like this either i have no support husband of 25 yrs is a user still….so dont know if i can go on like this…

  67. Max says

    I people! My name is Shane, I’m 29, and I’ve “been friends” with Tina on and off for 6 years. The longest time I quit it is 6 whole month, but it was like 4 years back. I’m gay, and I met a guy I really liked, I told him about my situation and he was there to help me get through it. When I was with him, I really didn’t miss Tina at all, I felt like my bf was more important and I really liked him. However, like some other couples, we just had our own other problems and our relationship didn’t end with a happy one. The minute we broke up I went right back to Tina, and It got worse, although I really hate myself for doing it. You guys know how crazy you’d behave when you are on it, right? I was like that, too. Sex without protections had finally rewarded me with HIV+ last year. Yes I deserved it I guess, but it’s so unfair to my mom, she has always loved me and she even accepts me as a gay son (took some time, but still… She accepts now). Now I quit my job and I didn’t dare to tell my mom I’m HIV +. I went to see doctors and I’m on medication now, so, I’m stable and it’s not likely that I’m gonna die because of it anytime soon. But I know if I’m still hanging out with Tina, I will! I quit my job last year and I’ve been using my mom’s credit card since. She’s a very success woman with a very loser son. I sometimes just wanna end it all but then I will know it’s even more unfair to her and that’s too selfish. After all she’s done for me… God I’m so lost and I so want have my life back and get my shit together. I used to have a loving family and a bf and a very decent job. Now all I have is my family, my mom now. I really can’t disappoint her more, she’s all I have now….

    Anyways enough about my sad story, I’m pretty sure meth does the same thing to everyone. “No one will ever have a happy ending with meth.” this I quote from a friend of mine who’s also doing meth. And I do believe what he said is true. (We are not very close tho, so he can’t help me quit).

    I wanna find someone, or some people to help me get through it, I mean it was the only way that successfully got me unhooked at the first place. I need to tell people(not the people I’m doing it with), and after so many posts I have read here I think we all need someone, or some people, who understands what we are going though and be there to help.

    So I have an interesting idea, tho I don’t know if it will work but I’d like to try. I know some people like me can’t go to rehab for some reason or there isn’t even any (good) one around you. But the internet is always here 24/7. So why don’t I leave my e-mail here, so for those who want friends or people to be there to talk with can reach me, sometimes it’s just a sentence of encouragement can help, and for me, it just simply feels better to tell people what I’m thinking or going through. I hope you guys do write me an email and we will start a group chat or something like that, something easy, some app that everyone’s phone can just download and get in the chat? If you are the one who successful quit it for years, plz join too, what if your story or whatever works for you can also work for us?

    So… Here is my e mail (I don’t want my friends or family to find out about this just by searching my e-mail address… So do note the space, and don’t copy and paste thx) :

    w a r (note the space) c s u n @yahoo. Com

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